Scared of Myself Alexander Stewart

When I was thirteen
I'd started gaining weight
So I started counting calories sometimes
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When I was sixteen
Someone told me I was stupid
So I bit my tongue, let others speak their mind
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Now I hear voices late at night
And honestly I'm terrified
That I'm never gonna be the same
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Some people are scared of heights
Or monsters coming out at night
But I'm afraid of something I can't change
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I'm scared of myself
If you ask me the truth
I'm not doing well
I'm afraid for my life
I'm at war with my mind
And nobody can help
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My thoughts go
(You're not good enough
Life's not fair
If you died
No-one would care)
Oh
I've lost control
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I'm scared of myself
If you ask me the truth
I'm not doing well
I'm not doing well
♪
When I was nineteen
Someone stole my innocence
And the first thing that I did was blame myself
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Now in my twenties
And I still feel like a kid
Trying to work through all this shit but, god, it's heavy
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Now I hear voices late at night
And honestly I'm terrified
That I'm never gonna be the same
♪
Some people are scared of heights
Or monsters coming out at night
But I'm afraid of something I can't change
♪
I'm scared of myself
If you ask me the truth
I'm not doing well
I'm afraid for my life
I'm at war with my mind
And nobody can help
♪
My thoughts go
(You're not good enough
Life's not fair
If you died
No-one would care)
Oh
I've lost control
♪
I'm scared of myself
If you ask me the truth
I'm not doing well
I'm not doing well